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♥♥♥ Happy Heart's Day.. ♥♥♥

Whoa.. what a day.. I've worked for like, 13 hours.. standing and walking for 12 hours.. that sucked.. loL.. it was really tiring.. but it's FUN though. I work at a 'so-called' Home for the Aged in Somerset. Honestly, i don't feel like working in that kind of place.. reminds me of my "lola" back in the Philippines.. I'm kinda scared of the residents there because some of them are like acting really violent.. and I'm like "damn, i shouldn't be here".

But in the Valentine's Ball today.. I saw different.. I mean, way different Residents (elders). There are still stubborn one's but everyone's DANCING and singing. The party was awesome.. well i really don't feel like dancing co'z I'm mad tired.. loL.. But since it's part of our job and the music too is somewhat feet stomping, i danced with the residents..

The party ends up at exactly 8pm.. and all I have in mind is that i really want to go home and rest! damn! lol.. on our way home.. While we are in the middle of a conversation.. my Grandma suddenly came to my mind.. I remember those days when she and I were dancing to those RnB music I used to play on my pc at home.. wondering if she's fine.. in good health.. I'm starting to miss her so bad again.. honestly.. I am avoiding her as much as possible.. everytime she's talking to my mom on the phone.. I'll go outside talk a walk.. or pretend I'm sleeping.. Co'z whenever i hear her voice.. Or hear her cry.. I can't take it.. I would cry so hard.. that i would keep it to myself so she won't hear me crying..

I'm sorry lola.. I'll see you soon.. i miss you..



write something here ~~~ (: (:; Thursday, February 14, 2008

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As i have said in one my posts dito.. iM suCh a spoiled gF.. gosh.. hate to admit it pero it's true.. loL.. spoiled on so many different ways.. kahit sa mGa tropa kong guys spoiLed aq..


write something here ~~~ (: (:; Thursday, November 01, 2007

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i've been thru a lot ( well for me madami na un. . ) of relationships.. and it changed my life in so many ways.. for the better.. and mostly for the worst. Im such a strong person, pero weak inside.. magulo ba?..


I just found myself reminiscin' about what happened to my past relationships.. baka kasi andun yung sagot kung baket nawi-weirduhan ako sa sariLi ko..

I am such a "hard-working" person.. loL.. 'pag may gusto ako, paghihirapan ko talaga.. get?! well, inde naman ako yung tipo na parang ako pa yung gagawa ng way para maging kame ng taong gusto ko.. "like" ko palang naman yung tao eh.. so parang yun ang way ko para mas lalo kong makilala yung isang tao.. I'm naturally nice naman to everyone.. (hindi sa pagbubuhat ng bangko ah..) parang ganun lang daw ako sa taong gusto ko.. I'll do everything to make him fall for me.. well that's according to my friend..

pero.. parang double-meaning un sinabi nya eh.. I'm the type of person who does EVERYTHING to make someone fall in-love with me.. and later on you'll break his heart.

aray naman. inde naman ako ganun noh. ang haba naman ng hair ko kung ganun ako.. Hindi ako ganun. alam ko yung feeling ng nasasaktan.. and hindi ako ganun kasama para manakit ng feelings ng iba!! HINDEEEEEE!!..

Madalas ako ma-balewala before. Lam mo yung feeling na binabastos kana sa harap ng boyfriend mo then yung boyfriend mo eh walang gagawin. Tatawa pa sya kasi mga friends lang naman nya ang bumabastos sayo.. well mas malufet naman kung pati parents nya diba.. pumasok tuloy sa isip ko.. "kabastos-bastos ba ko?!" wth?! Krimen na ba ang uminom at mag-yosi ngayon?! well, alam kong masama yun pero wala naman sanang bastusan dabah?! loL..

inde ko na pahahabain pa.. SALBAHE ako. kung sinalbahe ako. and after a relationship full of heartaches and pain, syempre.. hindi ko na yun hahayaang maulit. ang kaso lang.. MALI.

masyadong masama ang epekto saken.. loL.. once na maramdaman kong mauulit yung mga masasamang nangyari before.. inuunahan ko na. ang ending tuloy.. instead of fixing the problem, gumawa pa tuloy ako ng isa pang problema.. haaay.. well.. yun ang MALI.

I should forget those bad memories from the past. It's not that I'm bitter. it's just that i don't want those shitty things to happen again.. but i end up with a bigger problem..

I guess that's how painful being in-love is.. I didn't get the chance to learn from all the mistakes and heartaches na binigay saken ng past ko.. All i know is that i don't want it to happen again.. But I'm doin' it in a wrong way.. Kasi nauulit lang.. walang nagbabago..


write something here ~~~ (: (:; Sunday, October 21, 2007

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..+ ♥♥I Love You. but I'm not ready yet.. ♥♥ +..

is it unfair? hmm.. gaya ng lagi kong sinasabi.. may dalawang anggulo ang lahat.. just like this situation.. "mahal mo nga.. pero you have to give up the relationship.. dahil hindi mo kayang mag-commit.. " ehem.. tamaan na ang tatamaan..

UNFAIR.. para sa taong iniwan mo.. dahil sa immaturity mo. kaman.. admit it kaibigan.. hindi mo kayang mag-commit dahil immature ka pag-dating sa relasyon.. pwedeng dahil din sa hindi ka pa ready to give your heart .. i mean.. yung love and trust mo.. to someone.. but even if it's not your intention to hurt that person.. nasaktan mo na sya. and habang nakikita mong nasasaktan yung taong yun.. mas lalo kang masasaktan.. diba.. UNFAIR para sa sarili mo.. dahil sinasabi mong mahal mo yung taong yun.. pero kelangan mong bitawan..

on the other hand.. that person can't and should'nt blame you.. baket..? hindi ba't kaya mo nagawa yun ay dahil sa ayaw mong lalo syang masaktan in the future.. dahil nga sa dahilan mong hindi mo kayang mag-commit.. so it's also FAIR.. lalo mo lang syang masasaktan if you'll continue holding on to the relationship kahit hindi ka ready.. get?..


ano nga bang solution para maiwasan ang ganitong sitwasyon?!.. WALA.

once we feel na nagmamahal na tayo.. hindi naman yun planado.. hindi mo rin yun mapipigilan.. but make sure.. na pag nag-commit ka na isang relasyon, eh ready ka nang ibigay ang tiwala and love mo sa taong mahal mo.

ang love.. parang SUGAL yan.. ready ka masaktan.. handa ka sa lahat ng pwedeng mangyari..


and for you my friend.. if you feel like fighting for that love.. GO..
just be READY kung anuman ang maging resulta nyan..


i'M always here.. hehe.. kelangan talaga may ganun..
oo naman..



"parang cycle lang naman ang lahat.. lahat KONEKTADO. kung pansin nyo sa mga posts ko dati.. konektado lang.. marunong ka lang dapat sumakay.. get? kung hindi.. patay tayo jan.."


~oUt mUna ang bOogie..

write something here ~~~ (: (:; Saturday, October 13, 2007

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..+ CAUTION.. wag na wag mong sasabihin.. +..

may mga taong pabigla-bigla sa mga desisyon nila sa buhay niLa.. may mga bagay na 'pag pumasok sa isip natin, at mga bagay na biglang nasasabi.. akala natin yun na 'yon.. at sa hindi natin sinasadyang pagkakataon.. nakakasakit na tayo dahil lang sa kamangmangan nating yun. and eventually, pati tayo nasasaktan din.



wag na wag mong sasabihin.. sa isang tao na mahal mo sya kung hindi ka naman tlga sigurado sa nararamdaman mo.. baket?! paasahin ba yung tao? at paniwalain syang mahal mo sya kung hindi mo naman talaga kayang pangatawanan yun?.. mahirap makarma.. lagi yang pakatatandaan..


wag na wag mong sasabihin.. na hindi ka mahal ng taong sinasabi mong mahal mo.. kung nararamdaman mo naman at alam mo namang mahal ka nya talaga. o baka naman, kelangan mo ng matinding reality check.. maybe you're too blind to see the truth na talaga.. dahil you're still stucked with the past. mahirap yan..


wag na wag mong sasabihin.. na hindi mo na mahal ang taong alam mong hanggang ngayon ay mahal mo parin.. at pilit mong tinataboy yung nararamdaman mong yan para lang sa sarili mong kapakanan.. kahit sabihin mong yun ang makakabuti, well yes.. para sayo siguro yun ang makakabuti.. eh papano naman siya? wag mong lokohin ang sarili mo.. at ang taong mahal mo..



wag na wag mong sasabihin.. mahal mo parin siya kahit hindi mo na talaga sya mahal. 'wag kang maawa sa taong yun. dahil mas maawa ka sa kahahantungan niya pag nalaman nyang hindi mo na sya talaga mahal..


wag mo wag mong sasabihin.. na TANGA ang isang tao.. dahil una sa lahat, alam mo ba talaga kung sa anong bagay sya nagiging tanga?.. masakit masabihan ng ganun kaya kung hindi ka naman talaga sigurado. wag ka na lang mag-pretend na naiintindihan mo ang isang tao kung hindi mo naman talaga.


"Love.. parang sugal yan. dapat handa kang masaktan. dapat handa ka rin magmahal. dapat marunong kang magtiwala sa mahal mo at sa nararamdaman mo. at dapat magmahal ka ng walang hinihinging kapalit."


so kamUsta naman ang tagaLog ko.? hehe.. wala lang.. nariNig ko kasi si kitchie nadal eh..
sa mga tinamaan.. wag kayo mainis.. the truth hurts. alam nio na dapat ang solusyon dyan.

out..

write something here ~~~ (: (:; Thursday, July 12, 2007

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..+ i feel so fRiggiN' useLess at this time.. and iM soRry.. +..


andito ako.. nagpapakasaya.. saBi na eh.. once na naging maSaya aq.. may kapalit un eh.. mababaw na ko kung mababaw.. pero i just treasure my friends ng soBra.. pero sometimes para akong tanga.. nakakalimot ako paminsan-minsan.. tuloy nagugulat ako sa nababalitaan ko..

ang layo layo ko eh!.. tangina hindi man lang ako nakatuLong.. as in wala akong magawa just to help you.. im sorry.. kilala mo naman ako eh.. soBrang eMotional kaya ganito tuloy ako naun.. tae.. sorry tlga.. feeling ko wala akong kwentang kaibigan eh.. wala man lang ako nagawa.. im so sorry..

pagaling ka.. and im really really sorry..


exit..

write something here ~~~ (: (:; Friday, July 06, 2007

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..+ ♥♥ bEcauSe of you.. ^_^ ♥♥ +..


[Verse 1:]
Want to, but I can't help it
I love the way it feels,
It's got me stuck between my fantasy
and what is real
I need it when I want it,
I want it when I don't
Tell myself I'll stop everyday,
knowin' that I won't

[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I
don't know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit
but I doubt it I'm taken by the thought of it,
and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction,
I'm so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

[Chorus:]
And it's all because of you [3X]
And it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug

[Verse 2:]
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time,
I'm gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from,
cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave

[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I
don't know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don't know if I would quit
but I doubt it I'm taken by the thought of it,
and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction,
I'm so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

[Chorus:]
And it's all because of you [3X]
And it's all because...
Never get enough,
She's the sweetest drug

Ain't no doubt, so strung out [2X]
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it's all because of you,
Never get enough

She's the sweetest drug,
she's the sweetest drug...




write something here ~~~ (: (:; Monday, July 02, 2007

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..+ ♥♥ kaya pa.. kakayanin pa.. ♥♥ +..


"happiness".. ang word na yan.. once we felt it.. parang ayaw na nating matapos.. masyado natin ina-abuse ung hapiness na nafi-feel naten.. without having the idea na sooner or later.. ang kapalit nyan.. lintek na sadness. anchamprapi dba..? minsan tuloy naiisip ko.. should i give way for those people whom i want to be happy, and sacrifice my own happiness? or just let them be happy for me..? last time ang topic is about pagiging MALABO.. ngayon naman.. tungkol naman sa pagiging HAPPY..

aminin.. once na nakaramdam tayo ng sobrang kasiyahan.. ang sarap sa pakiramdam diba.. pero gaya nga ng sinabi ko kanina.. bigla tayong babawian ng kalungkutan.. ung tipong lungkot na mas higit pa sa sayang naramdaman naten.. yun tipong nasasaktan ka sa sobrang lungkot. kaya minsan pumapasok sa isip ko.. ang buhay.. parang medyo unfair..

minsan naman.. ayaw na nating maging masaya.. kung ang kapalit naman, ay kalungkutan ng iba.. pero mapapa-isip ka din.. "anong gagawin ko?! i-sacrifice ang sarili kong kaligayahan para sa iba?".. superhero?! tao lang tayo.. at nasasaktan tayo para sa mga kaibigan nateng nagiging malungkot kahit nakikita nilang masaya kana.. well.. it sucks..

may mga tao namang.. pinipilit maging masaya.. kahit nasasaktan na sila.. makita lang nilang masaya yung taong mahal nila.. o kaibigan nila.. sakripisyo ika nga nila..

meron namang sitwasyon.. kung saan sobrang masaya kana.. pero feeling mo, ikaw lang mismo ung masaya.. gets nyo ba?! for example.. sa isang relasyon.. masayang masaya ka na.. pero kahit minsan mukha ka nang ungas.. aus lang sayo.. kasi nga.. masaya ka.. at ayaw mong mawala ung sayang yon.. titiisin mo lahat.. para lang maging masaya ka.. at mapasaya mo sya.. kahit minsan.. masakit na rin..


kung iisipin mo.. karugtong talaga ng saya ang lungkot.. at minsan naman.. karugtong ng kalungkutan ang saya.. paikot-ikot lang yan.. may mga tao lang talaga na hirap tanggapin yon.. parang ako..

but this is a part of our friggin' lives.. we love, we hate, we became happy for a while.. then be sad later on.. this is a part of our cycle.. we would'nt be strong kung hindi nangyayari ang ganitong bagay..


we just have to learn how to accept whatever life's challenges are..


wala lang.. bigla na namang umandar ang madumi kong isip.. at napasulat ulit ng ka-eklatan.. baka sakaling makatulong sa ibang naguguluhan.. and para naman sa iba.. learn to appreciate what other people are doin para sa inyo.. don't let them feel that they're nothing.. learn to accept what they offer.. kahit para ipakita lang na you appreciate them.. diba..


part ng life cycle and happiness.. kahit karugtong nito ay sadness.. we should be contented.. and learn how to ride with it..


just sharin'..


exit muna..

write something here ~~~ (: (:; Sunday, July 01, 2007

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