Tuesday, December 12, 2006
..+ at 1:30pm someOne called at thE restO whEre i wAs wOrkin'.. iT was a nEws cOmming fRom the bAkery.. that thEy dOn't want to tell mE.. aNd thEn After 20mins. my Tita RoweNa called to tell me the bAd news.. mY dAd was piCked up bY 911 bCoz hE's fEet wAs bAdLy bLeedinG.. he's reaLLy in a vEry bAd conditiOn.. aNd i doN't know whaT to do.. i wAs shOcked anD wAsn't eVen abLe to taLk to mY tiTa nG maAyOs.. dEin q tLga alam GagaWin q.. shE eVen gAve me iNstructiOns.. whO to call, wHat shOuld i do.. dAmn. anD then i sTarted shaking.. anD nOt abLe to cOncentrate on woRk.
miXed emOtions.. i dOn't waNt tHem to sEe me cRy.. cOz thEy know thAt iM a jOlly pErson. bUt thiS evEnt i thInk chAnged eVErythiNg. i wEnt to thE cOmfort rooM and stArted crYing.. tuLoy-tuLoy.. iM not evEn fOrcinG my tEars to fall.. its fReakin' hard to expLain.. tanGina. naHihiRapan aq.. gumaLaw, huMinga.. pRomise.. iT's thE moSt shOcking nEws i'Ve evEr hEard.. kAya withoUt a woRd umaLis aq sa rEsto aNd wEnT hOme.. tAngina i was sCared, dEin aq makahinGa ng mAayos coz i wAs cRyin' hArd like a kid. dAming pumAsok sa iSip q.. naguLat din aq sa sariLi q.. kasi i was out oF controL. i was cRying ng walang tigil and can't even control it. promise. nanGinginig talaGa aq.. natatakOt aq..
i was in my room crYing.. non stop tlga.. tas nakiTa ko ung yOsi.. at ung bEer ininom ko tLga para lng ma-relax aq.. pero dEin tlga eFfectiVe.. basta ang gulo.. para akong bata..
upto now nanginginig paren ako.. kaHit nkauwi na eRpat q dEin paren aq aus.. nGaun lng ako na-shock ng ganito.. kaLa q aaTakihin na ko sa puSo.. suSme.. ngayon ko lng naranasan ung ganitong feeling.. hindi q alam gagawin.. tangina talaga..
taena.. sana ako nalang.. kasi kaYa ko hArapin ung naraRamdaman niLa.. kEsa nAman aq un ganito.. mas mahirap.. nababaliw na ko..
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Tuesday, December 12, 2006
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